Saturday 9 October 2010

Playing on Rainbows

From Mr Bad Fairy

The last post was taken from The Bad Fairy's notes whilst staying at the Sue Ryder Hospice. She insisted on flying home for the day on Thursday so we took Miss and Master Bad Fairy out of school for the afternoon and had a lovely time on a remarkably sunny day.

Sadly The Bad Fairy passed away peacefully in her sleep at 5.15pm the following day (Friday 8th October 2010), she always had great timing! I kissed her fairwell as she slept to start her on her next adventure.

The Bad Fairy has been an inspiration to all who knew her. She was always modest, selfless, ready to smile and on the side of the nurses! She will leave a big hole in our lives but her spirit lives on in Master and Miss BF.

The fairy dust will be sprinkled in an area of the garden dedicated to wildlife and directly below where the rainbows always rise.

I shall keep an eye on this blog and show it to old friends and new. If anyone reading this needs any help or a sprinkle of magic dust then the BF family will be here.

29 comments:

  1. Our hearts go out to you all.Claire was a brave and beautiful lady and an inspiration to many who have been following her blog.
    Joyce and Peter

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  2. I'm so sad to read this news. I too have breast cancer secondaries and found dear Bad Fairy's posts inspirational. I so admired her spirit and her refusal to let this disease crush her. My sincere condolences to you, her precious family.
    Belinda.

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  3. So very sad for all the bad fairy family. Her ramblings have been inspirational and entertaining. I wish I had told her before she passed. X Deborah

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  4. God bless and best wishes to you and the family - We'll miss her so very much. x x
    Joe

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  5. I am so sorry to hear this news. Claire has been such a wise and inspiring woman in so many ways, and obviously such a happy wife and mother. Thinking of you all at this very sad time...joanna xx RIP Claire

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  6. Sleep tight... I'll miss you.

    Dear Mr Bad Fairy and the little bad Fairies... we all back here in Somerset, are with you, holding your hands and holding you close in our hearts.

    Babs

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  7. Paul ... I don't need to put into words what Claire meant to me. Everyone I know loved her and I'm so glad I was "allowed" (!) to see her ... Despite everything she was the Claire I knew and loved, who had shared my ups and downs (I'll have words with her later about the downs!), and always had time for the trivia of others.

    I send big 'love 'n' hugs' to you and the mini-fairies and I hope (and secretly know) that her (wicked) spirit lives on in them!

    Esme (oops - I always called her that - something to doqith finding it hard to call someone the same name as mine!) was unique. We other 'bright lights' might emulate her, but we will never bee her. She was a star and tonight I shall pick one for her. xxx

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  8. Oops ... Forgot my log in and password ... Another ability we shared! Bee/Claire Zxx

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  9. I have been following this blog for a few months and am so sad to hear the news. It's the first time I've cried this year (I was diagnosed with breast cancer in Feb).

    The BF was a wonderful writer and seemed like a very special person. I looked forward to her posts. I didn't know her but I am very sad that she is gone.

    My thoughts go out to her family.


    Paola

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  10. Esme, you are the bestest, strongest, wisest, sensiblest,person in the whole wide world, I am so proud to have 'found' you and class you as a true friend..

    Without you and your help, advise and encouragement I would never bee enjoying my life as I am now.

    I will never ever forget you, you are, and always will bee very, very, special to me.

    xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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  11. To Paul and the children,claires Mum and Dad and all her family and friends.
    R.I.P Dear Claire. Such a brave and strong lady. Thanks for all the chats on MSN, there was laughes and sometimes tears. You are at peace now and out of your suffering. God bless you dear Claire and sleep tight dear Fairy. You are all in our thoughts. lots of love Carole, Marcus and Boy's (Poppie and Rib Eye) xxxxxx
    Lots of love

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  12. Esme/Claire touched the lives of so many in ways she will never know. My deepest sympathies to all of her family. Very sad to hear this news.

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  13. So sad to year of your passing Claire. Ive been following your blog for some time and you have been an inspiration through your suffering.

    Much love and my deepest sympathies to your family.

    Judi xxx

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  14. Paul, sadly we never got to meet you, our timing sucked.... I can't even try and put into words how and what she did for me when i lost my mom..
    But you.... you held her together. and I love you for that... My thoughts are with you and the sprites....
    Nadine x one half of the pixies xx

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  15. Paul and the children, have just visited Claires Blog to see how things are and of course seen the devastating news.Both chris and myself are so very sorry for you all. Claire was a great lady having known her from the age of 5 it makes it even worse. All our love and prayers Rob and Chris

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  16. Paul, i know when speaking to Esme, that you were her rock, her love and her laughter, her soul mate. Her children were her pride and her joy. Nadine and i were her Pixies. She gave us a friendship that neither of us could ever experience again. It has been an honour to have her in our lives and will always carry her in our hearts. She will always be a beautiful woman with a beautiful heart, who chose us to be a part of her life. It's hard to believe that we will never see her again or get funny cards through the post, or have her popping up in my messenger box. we will miss her dearly. Our love and thoughts are with you and the children, and to all that were touched by Claire/ Esme/ Bad fairy x
    Karen and Nadine ( Esme's little Pixies )

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  17. Marcus.......Rib Eye Steak10 October 2010 at 16:57

    Goodbye Claire.
    Thankyou for letting me into yours and your families lives.
    It was only through MSN and Email, but it was GREAT knowing you.
    My thoughts are with your family.

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  18. Hi Paul, it's Abbie, your niece.
    I'm very very sorry to hear about Claire. When I emailed her and read her blogs she always seemed such a happy, positive person. I'm very sorry that I never got to meet her but hopsefly I will get to meet Saul and Georgina soon.
    Our thoughts are with you xxxxxxxxxx

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  19. sarah (sarebear)10 October 2010 at 22:01

    rip darling esme xxx you were so so brave and thought of others right up till the end.
    the fairy has now become an angel xxxxx

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  20. Words cannot fully express what Rainbow Fairy meant to me. I called her my Rainbow Fairy because she added so much colour,love and laughter to my life. At the moment I am finding it hard to accept that she has flown away.I'm sure that as days pass we will feel her magical spirit around us and see it through her beautiful children.
    Heartbroken Fairy Godmother xxx

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  21. I am so very, very sad to hear this news.

    I came across the Bad Fairy's blog a couple of
    months ago. I thought it was wonderful - brave, funny, honest, inspirational, incredibly touching and beautifully written. I have looked forward to reading it ever since.

    I never knew you, Bad Fairy, but I wish I had. You were clearly a unique and amazing person.

    My thoughts are with you, your husband and lovely children.

    xx

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  22. Peter Holmes.

    I never met Claire,I wish I had.

    Claire had that special ability to press a few keys on a keyboard that allowed the reader into her world.

    I have read her words from beginning to end and recognise her as someone special. Someone with great humour and wit. Someone who managed such a serious situation with bravery that few could ever match. Someone who laid bare,for all who wished to follow, the journey through the last months of her life. Someone who so loved her family that they will carry the warmth of that love for the rest of their days.
    Claire was a special human being.

    I never met her, - I wish I had.

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  23. I'm a bit late getting here. I couldn't bring myself to visit until now. I never met Claire, yet she became very dear to me. Young enough to be my daughter, yet with the wisdom of the Elders and a sense of humour that kept me in stitches. I never met her, yet I feel as though I have known her all my life, and I wish I had! She was a very special person. I know how much she loved you Paul, and her family. Our grief is nothing compared with what yours must be. Bless you all.

    MrsRaven

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  24. I just found BF's blog via BCC.

    Aged 42, happily married, I am approaching dying with secondaries though I have chosen freedom at the cost of no further treatment.

    I shall trawl this blog with warmth and hopefully acceptance though I never knew Claire either. Thanks to her and my very kindest thoughts to her family. Words are sometimes simply not enough.

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  25. So sorry to hear of Claire's passing, she had a wonderful kind and funny spirit and she helped so many with her brave outlook. I will miss reading the honest day to day stories of her life, i wished i had met her. Claire will never be forgotten.My thoughts are with all her family.
    R.I.P. CLAIRE, X

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  26. I have just got back off my hols and am shocked to see Claire is no longer with us in person. I knew Claire just a few weeks but in those few weeks we shared not only her sense of humour her photos too. Claire was a lovely lovely person. My thoughts and prayers are with her family. I will miss our little chats day and night. Rest in peace sweet lady.

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  27. Like the post above, I have just returned from a break to read the terribly sad news.

    Like most, I never met BF but felt so close to her in so many ways. Her blog was uplifting, inspirational, comforting and startlingly honest and brave. I have no doubt that Mr BF and the young BF's are so proud of their shining light.

    I lost my mum to secondaries just seven weeks ago...if they've bumped into each other in a better place, I promise she'll take care of your special Fairy.

    My deepest sympathy and heartfelt thoughts to you all.
    Jennifer xx

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  28. I really hope your sliding down those rainbows with a huge grin on your face :-)

    Claire was a huge inspiration to everyone, she will be sorely missed :-(

    Love and hugs to you all Belinda xxxxx

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  29. What wonderful stories, Claire will always be remembered through her stories. What an inspiration to all. RIP.
    RMT

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